I’m Margaret, and I’m 73 years old. This is the story of how grief—deep, unbearable grief—unexpectedly gave me a second chance at motherhood.
Eighteen years ago, I boarded a plane while carrying a weight in my chest that felt impossible to bear. I was flying home to bury my daughter, who had been killed in a car accident. My grandson had been with her in the car. Neither of them survived.
I remember sitting there in my seat, staring blankly at the seat in front of me. My heart felt hollow, as if everything inside it had been scooped out and left behind somewhere I could never return to. The world around me felt distant, muffled, as though I were wrapped in thick glass.
At first, I barely noticed the noise coming from a few rows ahead.
But gradually, the sound grew louder.
And louder.
Until the crying became impossible to ignore.
Three rows ahead of me, two infants sat alone in the aisle seats.
A boy and a girl, both perhaps six months old.