I stared at her for what could only have been a second, but it felt stretched into something much longer.-olweny

Hearing those words while trying to maintain pressure on my son’s head changed something permanently inside me.

The ambulance arrived in a matter of minutes, although it felt like an hour.

The paramedics took control with the calm and efficiency of people accustomed to disasters.

Lily had a cervical collar placed around her neck.

One doctor asked her questions while another checked her pupils and lifted her onto a stretcher.

James got into the ambulance with her.

I started to follow them, but a police officer who had arrived with the emergency medical team asked me if I could give him an initial statement.

I looked at my father again.

He was already trying to convince people that it had been an accident.

I told the officer I would talk at the hospital, I gave him my card out of pure reflex and I went to my daughter’s side with my hands covered in blood.

It may be an image of a child.

In the emergency room, the next two hours vanished amid fluorescent lights, forms, scanners, and that special kind of fear that reduces every other worry in your life to a state of static.

Finally, a doctor took us to a consultation room and explained that Lily had a concussion, a deep laceration on her scalp, and a small crack in the back of her skull.

The words “small” and “stable” were supposed to reassure us, and they did, to some extent.

She wouldn’t need surgery.

She would need stitches, observation, overnight neurological monitoring, and careful follow-up.

“We had been very lucky,” the doctor said.

I hated that word.

Lucky had nothing to do with that.

When Lily regained consciousness, she was dazed and scared.

He reached out to me without fully opening his eyes and asked if Grandpa was still angry.