My father stood up. He moved with a speed I didn’t think he possessed.
“I said no!” he shouted.
And then, he swung.
Crack.
The sound was like a gunshot in the cavernous room. His open palm connected with my cheekbone. It wasn’t a playful tap. It was a strike fueled by years of resentment, by financial stress, by the desperate need to control something in his spiraling life.
The impact snapped my head to the side. A stinging heat bloomed across my face. I tasted the copper tang of blood where my tooth had cut my inner lip.
The ballroom went deathly silent. The string quartet stopped playing. A waiter dropped a fork. Three hundred pairs of eyes locked onto us.
My father stood there, breathing heavily, his hand still raised. He looked at me with wild eyes, terrified that I had just exposed his lack of control to his investors, to Mr. Sterling.
“You are embarrassing this family!” he yelled, his voice cracking. “Get out! Servants don’t sit with masters! Go back to your barracks and stay there!”
I slowly turned my head back to face him. I didn’t touch my cheek. I didn’t scream. I didn’t cry. Tears were a luxury I couldn’t afford in my line of work. I looked at him with the cold, detached gaze of a predator assessing a threat. I cataloged the fear in his eyes. I analyzed his stance.
I wiped a speck of blood from the corner of my mouth with my thumb.